So you might know from a previous post that I won't be studying psychology next year. But I've also been rethinking all of this since discovering a desire to be involved in pastoral care.
Not having gained a place in a psychology course, people expect that I will now apply for a counselling course. This is fair enough; that's what I said I would do. But I also started thinking about continuing at college. And I couldn't let this idea go.
I would love to continue studying because I loved this year at college. Just thinking about continuing made me excited. I want to be equipped to be able to better answer people's questions about God, to teach the Bible well and to care for people in a distinctly Christian way. I will never get a better opportunity than here and now to study theology and study it with J.
I also feel that if I studied counselling next year it would be because others want or expect me to and not because I wanted to. I don't think this is a good way to decide what to do.
Choosing to study at college again next year is not the easy option in many ways, or at least not everything about it will be easy or enjoyable. I will have to preach in women's chapel and I hate public speaking. I'm sure philosophy will turn my head upside-down. I'm not looking forward to the holiday homework or fighting the temptation to eat sweets at morning tea every day for the next two years.
When I told J that I had decided to continue at college and would email college to apply for this transfer he was really excited. Until then he hadn't shown me exactly how he felt about me coming back to college, not wanting to sway my decision.
So that's it, I'm going back to college next year! College has allowed me to transfer into the Bachelor of Theology which means I'll be at college for two more years. I have to do a bridging assignment for church history, as well as the regular holiday work that everyone does. I'll be busy doing that for the rest of my holidays, having not done any yet because I didn't have to!
I'm looking forward to what God will be teaching me while I'm at college and I hope you enjoy following my journey.