Every time I think about writing this post I get the song “Billionaire” by Travie McCoy stuck in my head (actually until now when I looked up who sang this song, I thought it was “Millionaire”). I don’t like this song, so I’ve shied away from writing this post. But a grumpy off-hand comment from J the other day made me decided to write it.
“Shelly, why aren’t we millionaires?” I knew the question was rhetorical.
“Why? What do you want to buy?”
“A new bike. And new shorts!”
J had been fixing his bike (again) and his shorts got dirty (again, and a different pair this time too). The easiest solution would be to get a fancy new bike that wouldn’t break, but of course that would cost a lot of money.
I’ve had thoughts like this too. If I were a millionaire I would buy a new wardrobe of clothes that suited me fantastically. I’d pay a personal trainer/dietician to make all my meals and healthy snacks so I could still eat yummy things and not feel bad about it. I’d buy a new car, with five doors instead of three (apparently the boot is counted as a ‘door’) so that our college neighbours could get in easily for the car pool to college. I wouldn’t feel guilty about the expensive new running shoes I just bought.
But we’re not millionaires obviously. We don’t even have jobs! We’re both students and we’re living off our savings (from when we did have jobs), and donations from friends and family (church and biological) who value supporting us in this way. We’re also highly unlikely to become millionaires considering what we’re studying for.
Sometimes I think having more money would make life better, easier, more secure. But wishing for more means that I’m not grateful for what already I have. We have a house to live in, money for groceries, dirt cheap clothes to buy at the college op-shop. We also have friends and family and support. Maybe life would be at little easier if we had more money than we knew what to do with, but we don’t, and I don’t think wishing helps in any way.
Whenever I have those wishful thoughts about being a millionaire I will use them to remind myself of how grateful I am for what I do have, and I will thank God for all of it.